A Picture is Worth a Thousand Words –– and
... a photo is worth a thousand stories. I promise to spare you a few.
Yet, the creation of this photo holds 1,000+ stories for me. I am grateful for the people and circumstances that led to its creation and recent acceptance into the 45th Annual Open Photography Exhibit & Sale at the Salmagundi Club in New York City.
Short version:
I am very grateful for the people and practices that helped bring this photograph into being. In particular, mindfulness practices fortified my voice in producing something outside of the norm of competitions and exhibits in which I've been fortunate to participate. Thanks to my friends for your encouragement, insights, example, support, and love.
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Long version:
There's a bit of history about how this image came to get moved out of my archives and paired with a poem for a blog post. Because of that, the image was "competition ready" when the moment was right.
I was on my second five day retreat within five months when that opportunity struck. Timing may not have seemed optimal yet I'm grateful I had been encouraged to reach a little higher. I answered the call and this was accepted at a place dear to my heart from decades back.
Here you go. I won't be offended if you skip to the part that mentions you! YOU are included in the creation of this photo.
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It's not just a barn door.
Why this photo is much about mindfulness and meditation, and about people who have supported my journey. 💛
Although the photo's story dates back before 2021, I'll start in December 2022 when I attended a five day silent retreat at Copper Beech Institute in West Hartford, CT. Well, it was supposed to be a five day retreat, with the blessing of the Copper Beech institute and their campus partner, the Holy Family Passionate Retreat Center, I was able to spend an extra night alone on the floor of a 70-year old monastery. I had hoped to see an old friend nearby the next day; she's a refugee from the war on Ukraine. I felt it would be good to have space between the two events.
Being alone on a residential floor of a 70-year old retreat center might sound a bit scary. It was at the outset. In reality, I was so filled with peace and curiosity following Saki Santorelli's wonderful retreat, I did not let fear overcome me.
I had been respectful of the retreat's guidelines and had mostly stayed off of devices, remained silent, and in my own lane during the prior five nights. Curiosity got the best of me during my bonus night and I explored the floor a bit.
The doors to the other rooms were unlocked. I entered several, noticing that they were mostly decorated similarly, and each had a different framed poem on a wall with the words of different poets familiar to mindfulness circles: Rumi, Mary Oliver, Wendell Berry, Robert Frost, David Whyte, Kabir, William Henry Channing, Dana Faulds, Hafiz, possibly among them.
One room presented a poem by Wendell Berry, I Go Among the Trees.
I Go Among Trees and Sit Still
by Wendell Berry
I go among trees and sit still.
All my stirring becomes quiet
Around me like circles on water.
My tasks lie in their places
Where I left them, asleep like cattle…
Then what I am afraid of comes.
I live for a while in its sight.
What I fear in it leaves it,
And the fear of it leaves me.
It sings, and I hear its song.
I go among trees and sit still.
All my stirring becomes quiet
Around me like circles on water.
My tasks lie in their places
Where I left them, asleep like cattle…
Then what I am afraid of comes.
I live for a while in its sight.
What I fear in it leaves it,
And the fear of it leaves me.
It sings, and I hear its song.
How fitting a reflection for the retreat I had just attended, with much repetition of silence, mindful walking, and other mindful movements! To my friends' surprise, the silence isn't the challenging component of my retreats. It's what arises within all that silence, and the reinforcement a practice that edifies all of life - both on and off the cushion. The content and repetition of this poem would serve as a good reminder of the value of a mindfulness meditation practice and this retreat.
My studio and fine art photography files are mostly attached to an old home desktop computer. The laptop with me had few photos on it. I dug a bit and found that this photo would pair beautifully with the poem. I could ruminate on the synchronized elements here, but I prefer to leave any reader or viewer the chance to discover how they dovetail - unless, of course, you want to discuss them. I published them on a blog.
Fast forward to April 2023. I attended another silent retreat. This time on Zoom; this time I did not adhere to the guidelines quite as strictly.
Before the retreat with Éowyn Ahlstrom and Bob Stahl, I had submitted some works to the Festival of the Arts hosted by the North River Arts Society (NRAS). I love this annual Memorial Day celebration, and, although I don't like art as competition, I realize competition helps me to grow as an artist and person. Besides, getting accepted is fun. Getting an award is affirming. North River Arts produces beautiful exhibits and a very fun community festival.
When I submitted to NRAS through an online portal, I noticed that the Salmagundi Club was also accepting submissions to its annual open photo exhibit. I had never dreamed of submitting there, yet I had grown up in awe of the Salmagundi Club, its level of talent, history and exhibits. Did I dare enter?
Nearly nightly, several of us listen to one of Michael O'Brien's recorded "Level Up" meditations together. Coming straight off of a new award at North River Arts seemed a good time to test new waters. I submitted two entries to the Salmagundi Clubs exhibit. I leveled up. One got in - and it wasn't the one I expected. It rarely is.
Funny thing, that submission had been at 11:30 pm during my second recent five day silent retreat. I had broken the "no devices" guideline of Éowyn's lovely retreat in order to enter on time. I originally rediscovered the image during one silent retreat and submitted it during another. That was fitting.
I originally made this image smack dab in the middle of the COVID-19 pandemic. At that time Michael O'Brien generously led his Pause Breathe Reflect meditation a few times a day on an all audio app called Clubhouse. I attended many of his guided offerings along with many other regular attendees. Although the pandemic is mostly in the rear view mirror, I'm graced with several lasting friendships from our time and growth together. Other groups also met on Clubhouse, also reinforcing mindfulness practices and education: The Miracle Morning, Everything is Right About You, and the group that is now called GratitudeSpace among them. Eventually, I began the Seeing Goodness community there. It continues to this day, as do the others. (On Facebook, too.)
Pause Breathe Reflect (PBR) has taken an extra step and created an app supportive of mindfulness and meditation practices. (Both on Apple and on Google Play.) As meditations apps go, it's quite spirited - though I appreciate that there are also some unguided meditations. (I'm also not a fan of overly syrupy-sweet meditations on some other apps. PBR highlights real life.) It also sports an online, very supportive Zoom gathering in which to practice in authentic community and navigate a bit of life together. One of Michael's missions could very well be to have everyone in the world learn to take even one minute each day to take an intentional breath, to take a moment to "Pause Breathe Reflect." The world would be a more peaceful place if we all did. My life is richer for it. It was part of the silver lining of the COVID-19 era for me.
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Ah, words. This might be a nice time for you to get a break from words. Here's a very short meditation from the Pause Breath Reflect app honoring Nature and your option to take a moment's break -- anytime, anywhere ;-)
Michael O'Brien's "We Are Nature" short meditation
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(I'll replace this image with a different quality one over the weekend.)
Meditation (and centering prayers) weren't completely new to me. Decades back I was greatly influence by Jane Hamilton-Merritt's book, A Meditator's Diary. It tells of her life as an American photojournalist who found her way into studying at Thai temples at a time when foreign women were not welcomed in the monasteries. I was a religion major at the time of my reading. Her accounts introduced many practices and insights to me. More than anything, I started to learn that I could - and dare say should - carve my own path. (Still learning!) Through the years I continued to practice some religious rituals alongside mindfulness and meditation. They can co-exist wonderfully. Many share similar lessons. Surely, they honor the value of silence, awareness, and introspection; forgiveness and compassion, as well. Variations of the "Golden Rule" are ubiquitous around the globe. Infusing my day with mindfulness and meditations practices has been life-changing for me.
Only recently did I learn that Jane Hamilton-Merritt, also an avid animal rights advocate, had also been twice nominated for a Nobel Peace Prize for her work on behalf of the Hmong people's struggle for freedom and survival in Laos from 1942 through 1992. (Her documenting book is linked here.) They had been American allies during the Vietnam War, and received essentially no US support afterwards. Apparently, I had picked up a very good person's book that day in the basement stacks of Wheaton College (Mass.) long ago. It's fascinating, but no longer quite so surprising, how one moment, or one small action, can change a person's life. Thank you, Jane, for your influence.
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So, why the long post for just one photo, and not a whole exhibit? This was a watershed moment for me, and I am grateful for all the people and organizations mentioned above. To me, you are in the photo.
In many of our best moments there is no "I and thou," only us. One of my best moments was seeing the framed photo rest on the gallery's bench as it awaited installation at the end of May. You all were sitting on that bench in the photo - a wonderfully magical moment. My husband and true life and work partner, Alan Kennedy, was with me in every aspect of that photo. First, much to many people's surprise, he had saved that barn from collapse. There would be no barn without Alan. Second, he supports me all week, all year long in my ventures and in our love. I couldn't ask for a better human to live and love through life together. I am grateful for your love, Alan, for our love.
My brother, George, my sister-in-law, Sheila, and our extended family member Kathy, joined us at the opening reception. They define the goodness of family. I felt supported and loved. I know my Maine family and Brooklyn (and beyond) family were very supportive as well. The Brooklyn and Long Island cousins and families are no strangers to art accolades, having rightfully earned many of their own.
Our nuclear family didn't grow up emphasizing the practices of art. Yet, I'm grateful my parents instilled an appreciation of museums. My sister, Suzie, has developed quite a painting practice. (Mike, too!) I always thought of her as naturally talented. I appreciated Suzie and Mike's online support and wish we didn't live so far apart. They were with us in spirit.
Alan's sister, Toni, also provides year round support and interest. Toni, like Alan, is another exquisite writer. She steadily offers keen interest in our work. I wish I were as attentive to others' creations as she is to mine. It's a gift having Toni, her love and talents in our lives.
Though several Marshfield, life, Seeing Goodness, and Pause Breathe Reflect friends contacted me near the opening reception's day, a couple of moments warrant mentioning. Two friends texted just as the reception opened. One is a wonderful Pause Breathe Reflect and Seeing Goodness friend, Corvett. (Others texted that day; I don't want to leave anyone out.) Corvett's message and timing were impeccable. I hope to not forget it. She brought you all to the gallery. Within the minute I received a text from Chris Brown of Humming Rock Gifts. Again, she and Mike brought my closest Marshfield friends into focus that day.
Yet, Chris had done something else. She had introduced me to her college BFF long ago, Nancy. Oh, when friends' friends become friends! Nancy offered assistance before during and after the reception. Nancy was a wonderful "right friend, right place, right time" magical friend. She brought joy, and, as the daughter of a photographer (R.I.P.), she brought a level of appreciation of the works on exhibit. She is gracious and honest, embodying much of what we're trying to realize in our mindfulness practices. I am still so grateful she shared this - and another recent day - with us.
And finally meeting PBR and Seeing Goodness' Deborah Margoluis in person the next day was the icing on this cake! Happy belated birthday, Deb! I was so grateful to meet you, and to spend time with you and your friend. What an exhilarating treat!
Again this list is long for just one piece. I offer it because you are who I see when I see this photograph. I also see and feel the wonderful miraculous silence and peace the image evokes. We are part of nature. Inextricably intertwined, in nature and with one another. I dedicate part of this (and hopefully a small part of the proceeds) to all who work to protect our people, planet, and natural resources. It is vital.
In addition to moving our photography studio to a new location, I plan to continue Mind Body Stress Reduction teacher training at Brown University this summer. At times, I continue to see and hear the insightful, lovely voices of Lynn and Colleen when I view this work. I also send love to those who continue to practice together in our unofficial ongoing Tuesday night cohort, including regular attendees Amy, Erin. Meg, Corvett and occasional others. You've greatly enriched my life.
One thing I heard repeatedly about many of the works on exhibit is that seeing the works in print, framed, and probably matted, made a huge difference in the viewer's experience. Try as I do, I cannot present the same experience to you online that I can in print. For that I'm deeply grateful to my very talented photo printer, Sean Goss at Goss Photo. Sean and his sister Tara are second generation in the industry. They know it well and are extremely patient with me! Beyond that, they are talented and knowledgeable! Thank you! 🧡
Perhaps even more patient are Dave Petty and his staff at the Frame Center in Hanover, MA. I learn from Sean and Dave and their staffs every time I work with them. Mark S at the Frame Center deserves a Fast Lane Pass into heaven for his patient work with me. Scott B also taught me a lot last month. As did Jade. I am so lucky to have all of these professionals nearby. Shop local! Their works and services are so much better than anything I could get online! Digital files don't cut it for me. Frame! I used to do my own fine art printing. No longer. Sean and Tara do it so much better. Have professionals print and frame your work.
After all, we're continuing to learn that we're all in this together. :-)
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Additionally, neighbors and friends Patty, Betty and family, Agnes, Karen, Steve, Liz, Michael, Nancy x 2,Jeanne x 2, Sandy and others (especially on Facebook) who supported me before the exhibit.
Several PBR & SG friends did as well, including: Lisa T, Sharon, Beth, Kimberly, Deb, Rick, Teea, Judith, Munirah, Marcia, Karen H, Sara, Cinthia, Myia, Andrea, Zatuilla, Annie, Daneen, Billie, Ellen LaShawnda, Shawna, Lisa H, Elizabeth, Corvett, and others (whose texts I haven't recovered, yet) who reached out before the exhibit. I send you my love and gratitude.
Artist and photog friends are amazing! You helped get me there in one piece when I wasn't quite feeling up to snuff. Thank you. And a big thanks always to Libby, Peg B, Mary D (x2), Mary E. H., Ed, Paul, Monique, Jackie, Stephen, Therese, Marti, Connie, Tish, and the inimitable Linda W You all rock big time! 💛🧡💛
Thanks to all who reached out after the exhibit. This is my answer to your questions. How was it? Magical. Yet, the magic came from all of you - and from meeting some of the other photographers at the exhibit. That's a separate post.
Thank YOU so much!
And please let me know how I can support your ventures as well.
And that barn door? It is just a barn door. Or a photo of a barn door in awe inspiring light. It also can be a reminder to take a moment for yourself to just be. It can be a reminder to become more aware of the goodness that arises within you - us - when we dare to sit in silence or nature - either by ourselves, or with what we consider sacred and divine, or with a group of wonderful friends. Friends I've learned, they can very much be sacred and divine. Thank you. 💛🧡💛
A sweet moment for me.
I returned a while after the gallery had emptied only to find this beautiful, kind woman looking at my photo. She told that it was her husband's favorite piece in the show. That was an unexpected joy - as she did not yet know that I was the photographer.
I can't expect everyone to like what I create. Plus there were many wonderful pieces in the exhibit. It was just nice to know that "Intertwined with Nature" had resonated with someone.
With photographic client work, photography can feel as if it is helping others. With fine art work, it's okay that it can feel like a selfish pursuit. However, there are times when I'd like to know my work has meaning and value for others. This moment was a very sweet ending of a wonderful experience for me.
I had the good fortune to attend an amazing wedding in Brooklyn just before the exhibit opened. About 80% of the exhibit was installed (okay, hung) the day we first visited. I viewed this photo with awe and even a bit of envy. It's remarkable.
I was delighted that Michael Ruggiero not only received the first place award for his work, but also because out works were near one another's. We got to meet.
Before the reception I stalked his work online.
You can find some here:
https://streetphotographymagazine.com/michael-ruggiero-documenting-disappearing-americana/
and here:
https://mkruggie.photoshelter.com/index
We both shared notes about how out-of-date our public sites are. I get it. He'd rather be creating than marketing. Keep creating, Michael! You produce outstanding work!
Here's his show entry. Powerful, isn't it?
Michael Ruggiero's Salmagundi Club link
Art does funny things.
Here's an elementary school reunion and a Girl Scout reunion. Only I neither am their ages nor did I live in their town. Fun!
Alan: a very good sport on a full day. Also a living piece of art. :-)
The photo above was awarded Best in Show.
Details to follow this weekend.
Normally, the shadows and bright lights of the building behind Nancy would bother me. Those in the know might realize why this image is okay just as it is.
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